缺乏自知之明的人，最终，都会变成众人的笑柄。何苦呢？

Rarrh.
Exams now, econs just killed me yesterday :x really felt like crying the moment i handed the paper in, but obviously didnt LOL i only wrote 1 thesis for 1 question, cant even think of antithesis plus its the 25 marks kind i'm so dead:(
Gotta go catch up on the rest of the subj before i die a hundred times over...
Meanwhile, i just hope that eveything will go well for everyone! :D

这几天掀起了讨论好人与坏人的讨论。 就像悦湾所说的，好人分成两种。“好人”和好人 “NICE” people vs nice people. 我认为以英语表述可更为有意思。第一种“好人”，会到处炫耀他的好， 所以是大字头。但第二种好人都是小字头，因为他们从不炫耀自己有多好，自己怎么被糟蹋，利用。他们所以好，不是因为他们要周遭的人对他们产生好感，人人都称赞他们为好人，心里得意。第一种“好人”渴望的是人们的一声称赞，人们对他们的肯定。他们不顾后果，在有些人面前装模作样，在别人面前却丑态百出。为了得到心目中，长辈、同辈、甚至晚辈的肯定，就装“好人”，心机特别重。但上帝是公平的，上帝有眼，甚至上帝没眼也会认出“好人”与好人。“好人”迟早会遭到拆穿，后果不堪设想。。。
对我而言，“好人”比坏人还坏。因为“好人”的假象会使我们对他们无所防备，所以可能会不知不觉地被他们一再利用。坏人起码已挂了个“坏人”牌在身上，我们有了防备，也不敢乱惹他们的麻烦。
总之，做“好人”，好人、 甚至是坏人都是我们自己作的决定。再多的教诲，全岛与开导也不可能会改变一个坚定的人的立场，只要凭良心，自己过意得去，对得起自己，就行了:D 还记得刘玉英在《台湾龙卷风》说的：“良心知多少？良心一斤值多少钱，菜市场有卖吗？”—可见我们的文明社会已落到了难以挽救的地步。。。
爱<3，
陈嘉慧(:

For the 119 hours I’ve learnt many life and social skills, for the 119 hours I’ve stood till my legs were aching sometimes, for (part of ) the 119 hours that I screamed till my voice became sore, for (some of the) 119 hours where I get AP-ed by customers of the library, for the 119 hours that were significant in my life for the past year, the memories, friends and experience, I’ll never forget. The strengthened bonds within such new friends, the ability to just talk about anything and as friends although you all are really seniors and working professionals whom I dearly respect!
Friday was the Friends of the Library Appreciation Ceremony with the theme of MAGIC! Haha. Due to econs exam in the afternoon >,< I couldn’t dress up for the occasion or something, so I just went in sch based tee haha. “You are the Magic in our lives!” was the slogan for the night and it started with obviously crap conversations with Charmaine and Kristof, 2 very very good friends I’ve made through fol-ing. Kristof really makes ridiculous comments that make you literally rofl and I guess his nature makes him very sociable and well-known haha. Then was speeches by some library branch managers, so honoured to be specially mentioned by Valerie, from Marine Parade library :p She was an officer that I always saw and I realized we could communicate well hahaha :D I saw Mdm Heng too, branch manager of Pasir Ris library. Haha I must thank her too, she is always very grateful to all fols at PRPL and always takes care of our welfare very well! She will just make sure we don’t over-tire and sometimes uses her funds to treat us too :D hehe. So glad that she recognized me and we chatted for a while haha she said I don’t appear so often le lol (inner thoughts: if no a level I will appear every week kind haha) Took a photo with her. Aft that was some story telling, quite cool :D Actually I think Serenne, Azi and the whole team took much effort to plan this thing for us :D Really appreciate them for being so nice and caring too! Honestly speaking, although the food, atmosphere does make a difference, the most important and enjoyable thing to me in the party was to interacte, and to enjoy the company  Usually even if we volunteer together, we can’t keep chatting so conversations were limited. Only through this party can we chat non-stop, even all the way home! I chatted with Angeline the most I think. Although she’s already a teacher but we still can chat like friends. I’m super comfortable with her and I just share my troubles while she shares hers too  She inspires me to do my best in life and not to stress myself up and even gave me ideas on internship and higher education lol. I saw several other elders whom I respect but treat me as friends and some of them even take care of me oops haha but I do repay their kindness by also taking an extra bottle of water for them, ask if they’re okay if they stood for a few hours… Reflecting on what Ms Tay (some director of public libraries) said, I was abit offended when she said elderly volunteers were more steady and frequent while youth volunteers tend to be more inconsistent in their duties. I felt offended because we are youths, students with many other commitments so we cannot be there to help them all the time, especially during school terms. As for me only, I make sure I don’t boycott any duties I’ve signed up for. If its last minute, I’ll try my best to inform Serenne, through sms. So although I agree we are less frequent and tend to appear only during term breaks, we still (or at least most of us) take pride in our duty and do it to the best of our abilities. Oh well, 自己不心虚就好:p
Recalling the many events I’ve participated in, no doubt I still enjoy large events, especially those held at the plaza at NLB, but Pasir Ris Library has also given me much memories :D Large events include Asian Children Festival (its still the best :D), book exchange,… These events let me make new friends, both young and old, as well as improve my “customer-service” skills, although job scope may be seen as mere “saikang” sometimes, such as collecting baskets, through the day, you realize your job scope includes getting baskets for people, answering different enquiries, directing the patrons to the start of queue, directing people to the different sections of books… Other jobs such as registration of certain activities were obviously more service oriented which tested my ability to adapt to situations and to tackle some customers that were not very patient. Asian Children Festival 2009 was the most memorable one. I was first supposed to guide the oh-so-long queue for tickets for the free workshops, (I thought hehe not bad :p), then my job scope increased to making sure that they were in the right queues which then automatically included explaining how the entire ACF works and what they’re supposed to do throughout the day. Then some discontentment among parents whol couldn’t get tickets arose, then I was told to take down the number of people and required tickets in the queue so that they wouldn’t be queueing up for nothing. Ahaha. This is the really tricky part. When you reach 20pax, then (inner thoughts: ohno how to reject the next person, sure scream at me one >.<) you tactfully and politely say that there are 20 ppl in front of you so I’m afraid your child may not get to participate in the workshop. *crosses fingers* hopes for the best. Responses( from mild to ridiculous) : huh like that also can ar? Anyway thanks for telling me if not I queue for 2 hours for nothing/ oh okay lorh, baby, they say cannot then cannot lorh/ what?! I queue for 1 hour already then you tell me no more space *&%^$@!%^&/what kind of orgranisation is it? Your planning so poor ar?/ I am very unhappy, first you tell me this one need to queue, queue already say no more, just now also like that, I am very very unhappy (in ascending tone) /&*^%$#@#@$%^!!!! Hahaha yup that’s about all. But the worst is when someone starts complaining to me, then ppl around that person starts joining in, and 我只能任由他们骂=.= Before the event, I told myself to stop using “I’m just a volunteer” as an excuse. Actually during briefing the officers told us just say “I’m just a volunteer” when the customers get unhappy hahaha. But I wanted a breakthrough, I couldn’t always rely on that excuse mah lol. Although throughout the day, I got scolded like 80% of the time when politely informing them that the slots are filled up, we need to see your child before we can issue tickets, you can only start queueing one hour before (change to we can’t control when you want to queue but we can only issue 1 hour before). It was really an experience, being on your feet from 830 to 7 and enduring ridiculous remarks and blah blah blah hmmm but somehow I felt that I’ve learnt a lot. A lot in terms of people skills, how to appease them and not enrage them further, how to settle such situations with a smile without losing my cool, how to not always depend on the really busy officers, and many many more! I almost broke down once, when they all surrounded me and started screaming. :o To think of it, it could have looked hilarious, like 5 aunties and uncles surrounding 1 poor 17 year old volunteer and screaming. But as I told myself to keep calm and Serenne came to my rescue, I became much stronger after that :D Was actually proud of myself :D
Book exchange 2009 was cool too. I held the “Please Queue Here” board all the way up, hands were tired sore but quite fun hahaaha. The librarians at the back of the queue all showered my with auntily-love :D
Other very enjoyable/memorable events included the talks and seminas organized by Ms Athena and Ms Huda. The best was that day spent as Ms Athena’s assistant for 2 events consecutively :D I doubled/tripled/quadrupled as registration/feedback form/helper giving out tokens of appreciation to goh/entertaining SPI speakers and helping them set up while waiting for participants to come back from their trail….. Learnt a lot through that too :D
Pasir Ris Library is still my favourite community library to volunteer at. The staff are all so friendly and there is where I found my close friends in fol, namely Charmaine, Jing Yi and Angeline, not to forget Deyi too :D One of the most memorable was the dino mascot, where we drenched in each others’ sweat and I meet Xin Ee ((:
I have really gained much from FOL and will definitely give back when I have the chance! :D Thank you all my FOL-mates and support from everyone (family for not blaming me sometimes when I sacrficice some family time, PW grp when sometimes we couldn’t have meeting cos I wanted to go FOL, FOL mates for making the sessions so enjoyable and me wanting to volunteer more, friends from sch whom I may have neglected, studies when I forsake you and go FOL hehe…) These memories will last and be etched in my mind as part of JC life :D

Hello!
Pre-common test slacking in progress :D
Kay actually nothing to be proud off since I wasted 2 weeks and half of this week…
My hols started so I went to study with May Ping on tue, then had dinner with Mr Yeo . I think through that 3hs+, I knew more about him than the entire term he taught us lol. I realized US education is really good for the development of thinking and stuff, its unrestricting, unlike the ones you get in most universities. I think I’ll benefit but no $ so don’t dream too much haha. Another reason is that I’m probably lazy, and I’m not one who will step 120394858319810940miles away from my comfort zone haha.
Aft that the nxt significant thing was CLEP camp. I have to say it wasn’t what I expected it to be. I have to admit I didn’t enjoy every bit of the camp. But its true, I’ll take it as a learning experience. As what Liu Chang have said, take it easy, take it as an experience. I really really want to thank the 老师s who gave me a chance to participate in this camp yet again, the other 德明year6s and the 德明year5s who gave me the courage and morale. I can really feel the 德明精神. I personally feel (as I’ve said its personal so pls do not stereotype kay) that perhaps its either we’re too small a denomination, or maybe cos we’re the newest in the programme, we’re usually left out. Left out not as in the admin left out, but the spirit, the activites, even the people, I really couldn’t click with them. Perhaps cos I’m Singaporean, 我不是中国人, 所以我不能融入他们的世界。不过，连咱们来自中国的德明人，也不大能够融入他们的世界。报纸说的对，语特二十周年，学生越来越少，本地学生跟少。Out of the 24 facils, I can bet you at least 70% are not native Singaporean. They look down on native Singaporeans, like me, they work in a different way from us. It not like I don’t know that my Chinese is not up to your standard, but its not like I didn’t try to speak in fluent Chinese for 4 days. Okay, this may sound ridiculous, but I’ve never spoken only Chinese for 4 consecutive days in my life. Yes, I am Chinese, but the official language in Singapore is English. Being able to converse in Chinese is possible for me, but I do not speak solely in Chinese. So obviously my Chinese isn’t as good as all of you!
I somehow feel that its not entirely the identity problem. It a bit of the sch thing. All the dhs year6s were responsible in their duties, doing everyone we needed to, but somehow we couldn’t click with the other facils (other than the control room peeps :D)
Ooh let me list memorable times in the camp :D (it would be wasted if we don’t remember the happy moments :/)
1. Running for lunch with Shile first, couldn’t match that Taekwondo girl, then was running with 吴老师haha. This will remain as something unforgettable, tiring but actually fun. LOL. I totally cannot believe how lucky I am. Just because lunch was at 1.30 and I ate breakfast at 630, I was running for lunch. What about kids who have not eaten for months??? Was really quite funny, in the end yushan and shile were the 1st 2 ppl to get food for CLEP camp 2010. Haha 吴老师 and I were the last 2 of the 1st batch of ppl. I still remember 吴老师saying 哇，他们包头，我们包尾. It was really hilarious. Cos me and shile were being kiasu, when the 营长said we could go for lunch, we were already running out of the hall, den we saw yushan and 吴老师， then we were all shocked that we were kiasu hahahaha. So we starting brisk-walking, then we turned our heads to see a lot of ppl behind us, so we started running! Hahaha, ohmy I’m laughing to myself now…
2. Playing 杀人where the year5s could come out with analytical and funny comments
3. Playing 鬼捉人aft lunch on day4, to think that I got cheated by Boshi haha, but in the end he was a man and let me off, he was running till his pants was dropping, my jeans were dropping too =.=
4. Crapping with the control room ppl, panicking cos almost all the speakers’ laptop had problem, then halfway the speaker likes to go 上面的同学！,haiz…
5. Food at SSS is the best, best camp food you can ever ever get! They really feed you like 6 meals a day, quality food somemore <3
Was quite sad cos I realized it was really the last time I’ll officially see 吴老师，although she said maybe she’ll come back during term3/4 to help us, it’ll really be quite stressful and everything. I really thank God for such a good and caring teacher. Although she loves to challenge us with her innovative questions, it really makes us want to improve. She always instills this, “there is always better” mindset into us, in both cll and pw. I can say that I took h3 cos of her, and I haven’t regret (other than for having to stay in sch until v late:x) :D I agree that 唐诗宋词is really not easy, but I’ll really try my best  The A I got for pw was totally cos of her hardwork, I think everyone agrees with me. No matter the outcome, we all knew we tried our best :D I will really miss her lessons and jokes and comments…Hope we can invite her for 6C21 year-end chalet, to thank her again for everything and for sponsoring our class CIP :D
CLASS CIP totally rocks!
Although I was really sad that I reached just on time on day1 to see them leave the centre =.= =.= =.=
Day 2 was fun :D Met Terence in the morning first to go AMK hub buy drinks… Chatted on the mrt then reached AMK, bought Mr Bean yay then 138-ed to the zoo. Walked straight into RFKW, memories of me carrying the rabbit :x so sad larh now cannot carry le  Then ordered KFC for cupcakes 21 and the kids, the kfc person was quite irritating, everything plain (no mushroom sauce in burger, no mayo or lettuce), and she cheated us of a side until Jiamin when to confront hahaha. Must thank Jiamin :D
I finally did a proper intro of the horsey station haha. Throughout my 8 CA duties, I have never done a single proper intro lol. First was playing the obs course, I think the kids enjoyed it, except some little boys had some heated argument and cried :o but it was resolved shortly after. Tug-a-boat was epic! Thanks to all the guys who sacrificed their arms by pulling that freaking heavy thing. Thanks really esp to Yong Chiang/Der Hui, you all got wet! The day went quite smoothly, other than I was super 无奈trying to take care of 19 kids while getting splashed with seawater at the Splash Safari show, but it was okay :D I guess I got a better view as compared to the other cupcakes :p
Touring the exhibits was fun, I felt bad for neglecting my buddy Mary, but in the end she talked a lot to me haha. Tried to make sure everyone could catch up and stuff. Really felt like some tour guide at the zoo, at the back part was kinda of rushed but guessed it was okay?
Throughout the day, I found myself carrying onto random ppl’s things/bags haha quite interested though, I didn’t even realize I was holding onto them…
I think that this CIP is really successful. Thank you CIP com (Jiamin! Fellow Logistics! MayPing! Liang Wei! Yiwei! CIP REP/CR Derhui! Games/Programs! Terence! Wei Jie!) You all ROCK! Thank you all volunteers from 6C21, every single one of you did a really good job! Got to see a motherly side of everyone :D Thank you Ms Tan for accompanying us and being such a nice volunteer, helping us in many ways. Thank you Bethesda (esp Aunt Susan and Aunt Imm) for giving us this opportunity to do service learning with the kids at your centre. Last but not least, thanks to Ms Tan and吴老师for sponsoring the CIP :D
I have to admit I’m such failure, being direct volunteering head of CSC but didn’t implement a single service learning under my term… Its really about the group of ppl you work with, grp dynamics, ultimate goal… But really THANK YOU 6C21 (ESP COMM) FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO REALISE MY DREAM OF DOING A SERVICE LEARNING (SOMEMORE A DIRECT ONE) PROJECT FROM SCRATCH ALL BY OURSELVES! IT WAS REALLY AMAZING TO SEE THIS ENTIRE PROJECT BECOME A SUCCESS! THANK YOU EVERYONE! LOVE ALL OF YOU! :D
I shall go rest le :D
加油mugging everyone!
要喝多多的水哦！别开夜车，得注意身体健康！
大家保重！
爱<3，
陈嘉慧

wahahaha i'm here again!
GP's over now its cll!
《茶馆》+ 《药》
at least i finished PQ hehehe.
come on lets jiayou! :D

hello!
trying to gain info for GP tmr haha :D
today's cll lesson was T.T , but at least now i know how much i have to catch up and understand and link then draw a big big mindmap then stuy it really hard then get A (i hope :p) :D somehow i sense enjoyment throughout the lesson from everyone else =.=
yay today huang laoshi was nice enough to cancel h3 :D for us to rest and revise GP!
but i went bedok library instead. Found out that newsweek is sooooo much better than times hahaha. i'm gonna constantly read newsweek yay bedok library is cool!:D
okay time to unpack terms and prepare for GP by sleeping. Whee~ looking forward to CLEP camp and class CIP (not really on the tedious planning though) ahaha.
take care and jaiyou everyone!
I <3 you!

Love,
Christine(:

读者们你们好！
以下也就是心理的一些感触，并非正确的人生观点，但是我个人认为因该正确的观点。
我们作为宇宙上的人类，到底意义何在呢？ 有些人认为我们的使命非常伟大，是为了彼此帮助，为世界社会的发展作出重要的贡献。有些人也认为，我们处在宇宙上，是因为我们是高智慧的动物，所以我们必须负责管理与规划宇宙上千千万万的动植物。
但您是否想过，无论上帝的目的是什么，人类的野心，人类的丑恶，都在慢慢地把地球毁灭，慢慢地破坏自己与千千万万动植物的家。说我们对世界发展作出巨大的贡献，不如说我们对地球作出了不可挽救的迫害，作出巨大的摧毁。论发展而言，我们人类真的发展了吗？或许在以发展国家的我们，认为生活安定，不再为吃喝愁，人类有了发展。但你是否想过，我们的“无忧无虑”的生活，代价却落在发展中国家的人民。我们或许看不见，或不愿关注，但事实摆在眼前，他们的痛苦可说是我们所谓“富有”人所害。所以我认为世界并没有进步，而是我们把大多的支援局限于一小撮人，让这些人过着安定的生活。但世界的大部分人，就为这些人牺牲。命运是不公平的，但这就表示我们应该任命？
总的来说，人类所谓的“发展”的弊多于利， 而这“发展”并非全人类的发展，而是把支援局悬在一小撮人，“蒙骗”大家，社会进步了。。。

最近都在做作业，准备测验，生活乏味，心情低落，但又能怎样呢？继续加油吧！
<3 爱
陈嘉慧

yay time for a quick update!
trying to study maths now!
this week was quite okay except that i flunked the songci/xinshi test cos i was too dumb to think that 豪放will come out and didnt analyse the difference btw *** & **** :(
but lucky i kinda of studied everything, though not in minute details. Hope to redeem myself duing guwen nxt week. However, nxt week is a busy week. monday maths test, tue econs test, wed guwen test, thur gp consultation.
haiyo i know i shouldnt be complaining because A levels are speeding towards my way!
oh we celebrated our class twins birthday on fri! haha not really twin lah but they v cute! Happy Birthday May Ping and Brigitte once again. Very nice and fun to have you two in our class, bringing joy and laughter! Love the both of you! :D
hmm ohya i'm a 小组组长 in 语特写作营 2010 :D 更去年一样！I kinda of looking forward to it. Probably doing more fol too to destress and not be a kuku cooped up at home being unproductive. I need to improve my productive capacity by increasing morale :D Hopefully i'll be able to strike a balance between work and play :)
But i heard we're having 3h lectures during june :0 sounds super scary cos GP lecture 3 periods already v hard to tahan hurh. but for the future and my dream course in uni, JIAYOU!
Talked to nat in the morning, sad that i feel so far away from her :( probably catching up at the end of this year. Somehow we seem to be from diff worlds, like from schs of different culture, diff background, but the lessons learnt in life and some opinions are so similar :) I realised talking to friends from previous classes allows you to see how the world/yourself/your friends have changed. for the better or worse? no ruler to measure, it just happens. I remembered talking to Prida on 158 one morn, realiased we've almost lost connnection. Actually i think i've lost much connection to golien other than for nat (but we were not even close in golien) and maybe Nicholas (cos of tuition, but still not very close in golien too). Ohwells, i dunno why, maybe its because of some ugly truths i've seen that i dont really miss the connection. (kay i think i'm slow, many many ppl told me they found out while we're still in golien, maybe i was in a daze?)
I've learnt to appreciate cupcakes21 and learnt to let go. If you know its gonna hurt you, then let go of it, lest it really deals a big blow to you. 早知今日，何必当初？, so apt right? haha.
oh yarh i need to say something. My toe really hurts :( some ppl dont believe me rarrh, so sad :(
i've been thinking alot, abt ppl's behaviours and stuff. Found out that ppl sway so easily, principles are no longer important in today's society. Many go by the "its okay to cheat/do immoral things, just dont get caught", I think that its a wrong principle lorh. If you've trained yourself to ignore you conscience, perhaps youre no longer human. If you've trained yourself to the point where negative consequences of your actions on other ppl are okay, perhaps you've already lost the sense of humanity in you. To err is human, but when you do wrong and jolly well know that its wrong, but refuse to correct it, or even continue, i feel sad for you. I cry for your soul to be saved.hmm, but these ppl really do exist in the world, maybe thats why God's second coming is nearing....
I think God has been guiding me in my path to achieving forgiveness, hmm thank you Lord :D
okay i shall go study circles and how they meet the bisector to give an imaginary number. How interesting!
Take care and jaiyou everyone!
Love,
Christine (:

Hello!
I'm super duper whoooper sian now cos i'm supposed to write my cll essay :(
like cant start leh :(
okay i shall share some of my thoguhts here and hopefully/ miraculously gain some idea on how to start hehe.
these few days quite sian, nothing interesting, other than panicking for tests while seeing your classmates literally sleeping while you are so freaking scared that you'll fail, they are sleeping and you jolly well know that they'll get at least an A for the test. Hmm am i dumb or are they just more prepared (aka closet muggers :x)
though to ponder upon.
anyway today Pastor Colin talked about divorce. I totally understand the sermon and i actually agree with his pov. God hates "putting away" which is to neglect your wife but not giving her a bill of divorcement, which means she is still legally bound to you, but you do not provide for her. Extreme cruelty! By divorcing, at least you allow her to live independently or find her happiness with another man without being accused of adultery.
Hmm i suddenly thought of our PW. We totally didnt think of/ develop this point. haha i think quite gd. As in we thought of the idea of abuse, but still...
Sian i am super sian. okay back to essay! :D
meanwhile jiayou everyone, stop falling sick and drink more water and sleep mroe (while you can), be nice to ppl arnd you and you'll get the same treatment.
oh i saw this book at popular, thought it was sooo true
《计较是贫穷的开始》
Its so true, the moment you pick on nitty gritty things, other will do the same to you. Then it becomes a vicous cycle, where you'll lose more than you gain because some gains may be implicit, but ultimately more valuable than the practical/explicit gains :D
kay take care everyone. time to chiong :D
Love,
Christine(:

yo!
i thought of something today!
You do not pray for luck, you pray for the Lord to give you wisdom and guide you along to success!

HELLO!
I know there has been a lag of post! :p sorry sia!
I know busy is an excuse, so I shall say I am lazy haha.
Aft a series of events, I have thought through a lot, though not intentionally, the thoughts just formed themselves up in my head. So perhaps I’ll share it here.
- The individual who gets a good grade/ gets an award may not always be the most hardworking nor capable one. It’s just that the particular individual had the opportunity to showcase and develop his/her talents. Therefore, opportunity really does affect your quality of life.
- (thought of this on the bus) When you were an infant, parents show their love for you unashamed i.e. kisses the infants head every 5 secs, making funny faces just to make the baby smile. Then as you grow up a little, it is as if parents find you a bore i.e. tells you to keep quiet and stop fidgeting every 5 secs. But, when you finally step into your teenage years, you jolly well know that when you cry, your parents are crying in their hearts too, there’s a burning desire to ask if you’re okay, ask if they would be of help to you, but they cannot bring themselves to ask you why
o To be honest, I really saw the 1st 2 scenes simultaneously on the bus, the last one is one that I thought of immediately, aft seeing the difference between the 1st 2 cases
- In order for God to help you, you really first need to believe in yourself and give it your best
- Challenges are a test of your ability, not a showcase of your disability
Wahahaha. I think that these thoughts are really true in real life! So may seem cliché but I really see them manifest in real life, like in my life!
School has been possible only because 21 girls have been making my day by having coincidental cravings for dewberry, chocolate… Being around you all really made school less tough and more enjoyable! Hope we’ll still keep in touch 10 years later… or even for life!
Actually come to think of it, its so amazing how we’re so happy as a group of 9 individuals. I seriously think that each of our characters is unique, but we click so well! Thanks for being so supportive and taking loads of initiative for any mini celebrations/ preparation for birthday! I know actually I’m quite slack one :p Lets hope we continue to stay cool, stay together and fight A levels together yay!
Wed had dinner at V8 café to thank 吴老师for all her hardwork, and also to celebrate her birthday. It was quite enjoyable, laughed a lot a lot. Ms Tan was there too! I think our teachers rock cos they really talk to us as friends, as in you don’t feel inferior talking to them. Had a really happy time, glad to see that everyone, 吴老师 and the entire class has gotten over the depression period aft pw results. Although we’re unable to change the outcome, at least a positive attitude will lead us to greater heights during the final A levels. :D Oh ya, in the end the teachers treated us =.= so paiseh leh, but they said it was for a good cause since it’s going to finance class cip! Hmm I really hope we can implement the cip!
Back to more serious stuff, I think I need to learn to forgive and forget more easily. Its hard to irritate me thoroughly, but when you really do, its very very hard for me to forgive you. Perhaps I need to really start to 看开一点 and start forgiving and forgetting. Hope the Lord can help me on this. I shall pray for forgiveness and the power t o forgive (:
Hee, I think that’s abt all! Tmr gg to study with May Ping! Hope that it’ll be productive! Got 4 econs part a essays to do! Hmm jiayou everyone for everything!
Ooh and Zul I know you’re trying really hard now! Just tahan a while more only! Cheer up kay, don’t be so pessimistic liao! I support you all the way! Hope you get out of NS soon! Hope to see you and hear good news during FOL party! :D Take care!
Wishing everyone success/ to be in the mood of mugging( I think v impt)/health and everything you need!
Love,
Christine (:

Yesterday was an ultimately tiring day, mentally and emotionally (which automatically results in physical fatigue)
Many happy faces, but none from 21. When 吴老师 broke the news to us, my heart sank. However, i was hoping maybe it wasnt as good as last year, and since cohort average was 76% A, it cant be very bad. I was probably dumb and too scared, i actually didnt see my grade the first time. but thats no impt, seeing my well deserving classmates crying was heart wrenching. But i had to put up a strong front, to comfort them, or even humour them. but it didnt help.I could feel the pain, I could feel the sorrow, I could feel the sense of 不甘心。Truth be told, I believe most people are unhappy not because they are disappointed with their results. Most of the discontent stems from comparing, then blaming injustice. I understand, although I’m in no position because I am not a victim, I must say, I’ve definitely felt this way before. But I remember telling Yuewan你的成绩会改，他的性格一定不会改！ I know that this result matters, because the world is too reliant on such unjustifiable information. But its really important to put this into perspective, you still have more than half the battle in your hands. The most important battle is coming, not over. As long as we can pull ourselves together and conquer the next battle, we will celebrate our final victory.
I have learnt much from this. It was quite a shock, and our reactions/ mood was a shock too. Never did I think that I will feel that unhappy and sad. Never did I even think that there wouldn’t be even a tinge of happiness around me. Maybe it’s the really pleasant nature of our class, really no more was happy. Other classes were rid of EQ seriously. “Hey you wanna see my A?” “Eh 21 all As right?” “eh you all scared what got *老师 sure A one”
Don’t you see people crying, don’t you see that no one is smiling. Do you know the pressure you all put upon us, do you know the torturing expectations and pressure you put on our st? do you ALL realize how insensitive and rid of humanity you all were? Do you know what rubbing salt on the wound is? You all were practically putting lime juice on our wounds!
And I hope *老师, please stop blaming yourself. We knew we worked hard, you definitely knew you worked hard. You were the best tutor, the effort and time and sacrifices, we all will NEVER forget. Although we really couldn’t find a reason why our results were like that, this is definitely not the time to point fingers. Nobody is to be blamed. I believed the whole class will agree with me that we CANNOT, and I repeat CANNOT blame you. However unjustifiable it may be, I think we all knew that we have learnt from this. So please don’t feel sad, please take care, and I will also be praying for you. Thank you once again. Happy birthday in advance too.
So I sincerely pray and hope that 21, we all move forward as a class, aiming for best A level results in the near future.
Regards,
Christine

hello people :D
tmr's kaleidescope so theres time to blog today :)
school has been quite hectic and me being sick is worsening the situation :p
anyway i think career day and everything has really got me thinking on what i want to achieve in the future. the course i want/ the career i want. so far, my goal would be to become a speech therapist. many people may think speech therapist are like professional doctors, just that they earn 10 times more. but no the speech therapist i want to be is the type that works at public clinics/hospitals or even go down to vwos. i do not want to serve rich kids. i want to reach out to the middle and low income kids with speech disabilities. not being able to express oneself is really a torture and i want every kid to be able to express themselves, and not feel frustrated just because they cannot express themselves. i will be contented to earn $2000+ a month although i could be earning $10000 by opening up a clinic. everyday when i go to work, i want to look forward to helping someone, improving the quality of someone's life, and not think abt how much money i'm gg to earn. i will not let money matters bother me because i know He provides :D
haha. but i have to study triply hard cos there is only master of science (speech pathology) in singapore. so if i want to start taking a degree, i would need to go overseas which means i need a scholarship because i know my parents can't afford to send me overseas (even if they can, means it'll be really really tough) i can boldly say that i will not break the bond if i get a scholarship because i will be contented with a job that can help people. i do not think that i will job-hop due to attractive salary. but thats my current mindset. it may change in time to come, but i hope it wouldnt lol
school has been boring, kind of overwhelming. i suddenly feel lost in gp. :p scared of ms tan too. better do more reading and work hard. econs ms tan is getting scary too. must read more and try to understand too and maybe consult her soon.
sian gg to edit class cip proposal :D seeyou guys soon (if anyone still reads my blog)

ohmy i'm very sian. i still have a 微型小说 to complete after finishing a 茶馆 essay. ohwell my night is filled with cll and more cll. i havent finish econs too. :( lagging in maths and physics. ohmann thats all my subjects lol. kay not funny. i shall go find inspiration to write my short story. Jiayou everyone, brace the busy and boring term ahead! :D

Yo people!
Been really busy, but its an excuse hahahaha
Took many many testssss and feel super sian like don't want to study anymore cos very sick of it. :(
but for my future still must study sian ttm ><
somehow i think this year less 顺利，as compared to 2009 but i shall try to get out of this mindset lol
heard pw results coming out, hope our whole group get A yay. I think we all deserve it and we should get A cos 吴老师 deserves it too for helping and pia-ing with us :D
hols now, suprisingly free of commitments which means i must finish all my hw and be a gd girl. Talking of hw, last fri was scary cos its the 1st time i see teacher chase students out bcos they never do tutorial :/ very scary, although i got do but still scary for me cos there were only 4 students to target questions at in the end :x and i'm the lousiest there and i have the habit of staring in the teacher's eyes when they teach o.o
kay i should go continue stoning and hopefully do some hw!
i am stuck at physics :(
jiayou everyone.
i think this post not coherent because don't have constant phase difference.
HAHAHA

yo people. i am bored and totally do not feel like studying for physics :( but heard its easy so it probably smart to study ><
hahaha many funny+embarrasing things happened , I really <3 6C21 hahaha many happy times and memories.
1. today ms tan asked me to point out the shortage, so i went to her high tech tablet pc and i had difficulties using the "pen" and spelt unplanned as uplanned and wrote investment instead of disinvestment by mistake :S then the class laugh =.=
2. i was super dead and tired on bus 30 where i met justin first, then ms tan :o then she came to sit beside me and chatted for like 7 sentences then she told me i could doze off and ignore her o.o obviously i was more awake than i was in econs lecture oops
3. playing touch rugby is a newly defined style & speed
4. laughing at each other for weird reasons
5. target ppl and start suaning :D
:) happy but tired day... this week's ending, nxt week's coming, more suffering yay :(

SORRY READERS! (if there're still any)
I have been neglecting this blog for a little too long oops.
Anyway life has been 一天比一天糟！
Loads of hw + lack of sleep + lack of interesting activities = sad & tired me :/
BUT i believe i can do it through HIM :D
I really dunno what to do without HIM helping me in my daily chores!

Anw i blogged today to kinda of rant and get it off my chest. I hope i'll feel better aft this :)
我不能容忍你这种态度，若你还是继续这样，在人生中很难会有突破与成功，也很难会快乐。或许你认为不重要，但对我来说，做任何事都得尽心去完成，更何况是正规作业。虽然可能不打分，但也不能马虎。与你合作可说是困难重重。在我的角度，你付出的只是冰山一角。我们约好时间，你没有一次准时到，而我所做的，你也当成是自己做的。可能我天生不爱麻烦，没有说穿你，避免和你翻脸，但心里这感受，不发泄对我来说也很辛苦。或许我自己做可能早就完成了，但我没有那么做。因为若我那么做，后果是你会陪看穿。我每次都以笑容与你交谈，但心里却快沉不住气来了。我不想和你翻脸，一年多的友情，我付出的，我不希望一转眼就落空，可嫩黄你没有发现，我到处包容你，但你给予我的却是埋怨，令我失望，也无话可说。我知道你生活中的priorities 与我的完全不同，但升位学生阶段的你，不是应该专心读书吗。我真的认为你的生活态度非常不应该，但我不要和你翻脸。我没有说穿你，可能表面上是在维护你，但这是个错误。我一再的给你机会，你有争取吗？我真的好想好好骂你一顿，但谁叫你天性比我凶？但我真的想为你祷告，希望你会有醒悟的一天，我真心希望这次没有害了你。
okay i feel much better now. sometimes i hate my nature, my cowardy nature. i am afraid of trouble, i want peace, i am willing to give in, but ultimately, both parties lose out and i think i am doing the other injustice. maybe i should grow stronger and learn to voice out my opinions, but again i don't want to hurt relationships. maybe thats the irony of life.
well, i should go research abt marriage now! presentation on friday!
hope my life will improve!
jiayou for everything everyone :D

i know its kinda of late but i really want to post this christmas song lyrics haha
The Meaning of Christmas
the meaning of christmas is loving,
a heart without hating or striving
the meaning of christmas,
dispelling the darkness
the meaning of christmas is You

christmas tree and santa claus and jingle bells,
they are only incidental things.
God has given me his very best as you can tell
so what about the precious love He can bring?

the meaning of chrismas is loving
men's deep sorrow rejoicing
the meaning of christmas
dispelling the darkness
the meaning of Christmas is You!

i find this a really meaningful song with a catchy tune! :D
have been neglecting lots of things in life.
hard to strike a balance sometimes.
oh well what done cannot be undone so i should just continue working hard to strike a balance.

ohya i see the 政治黑暗now hahaha no point guessing what i'm referring to...

anw i really miss my friends whom i've not seen (nicole, pmz!,...)
hope to get to go out and crap/ catch up soon!
:)

HELLO :D
I know my blog's kinda of dead o.o
sigh... my busy schedule. <--- excuses
ANW, my life has been pretty fulfilling with no breaks haha. Since i have an interesting life, must share with you all. Kay s i go event by event ;)
First thing aft handing up GPF was imac clep training. Was quite shocked to see only 6 ppl in the class. i think cos its non-compulsory (and 2 of them went cos they were the chair+vice-chair of clep lol). It was reduced to only 4 ppl on the second day 0.o haha. Fri mon went to white sands to do imac proj with shuen! That girl was late larh ._. anw we couldn't really decide and photobooth was tempting so we did a bit and cam-whored on photobooth!
Sat was donation drive... kinda of wasted my day becuase it was really fruit-less. Although i will still get the hours (i think) but really didn't do much. It was some MusicSG project, where we will be collecting music scores, CDs, DVDs, programmes. The catch is that it must be written/ composed by Singaporeans and preferabbly from the 1940-80s. The scope is super duper narrow. I mean i'm not saying spore is lousy but the number of Singaporean composers who publishes albums is like really little. Hmm maybe the committe heading this project must re-consider on scope? I think that its a good initiative, but maybe need a wider scope...
Sunday was just spamming theory at home then church!
Mon- Fri : WEP at STA
First 2 days were quite bad because we were super bored and only picked up phonecalls (which made the retail ppl abit pissed) and paste stickers on brochures =.= Somemore 2nd day i was packing the cramped and dirty storeroon :(
Aft that was relatively better cos i got to learn how to use iBrains, Abacus, issue insurance and pack the Tour Manager (TM) file and print booklets and fold and staple hahahaha.
The people there all quite nice, but i think the boss a bit erm unpredictable ( like you don't know when she's joking...) other than that quite okay , haha i am like in the grp department with nice people like Krystle, Raymond and Rosy. They may look a bit fierce (except krystle) but they are really very nice. i think the only down side abt this wep is $10 a day. and Bugis food quite expensive :(
Sian i feel sian. I shall blog abt asian children festival nxt time!
Menawhile, jiayou everyone!